It has only been three very long months since our sweet Pastor and his precious son came to be with you! Is there a reason that you needed Simeon, and so soon?? Our church is still grieving, still reeling from the accident that took Forrest and Preston.....now, this???
I am at a crossroads right now. I know God loves me. I know God is good...all of the time. I know He is a loving God. I just don't get this. Three months ago, on May 12th, 2008, our loving Pastor, Forrest Pollock and his 13 yo son, Preston, died while flying in Forrest's plane to go to a Church related activity. He crashed his plane into the side of a mountain just miles from where my parents live.
Our Church was devastated. Since then, I have felt lost when at Church. So much changed in so short a period of time. We moved into the new building, started working with a whole new group of people.....singles instead of older folks, and, then, Pastor died after only preaching three sermons in that dream of his. We buried him on the 17th of May.
Three months after his funeral, we get a call before Church on Sunday morning, the 17th of August, that our Precious Music minister, Simeon Nix, had a fatal heart attack and was gone from this earth. There are so many questions running through my head. I had just gotten to the point where I could let Mitch leave the house without worrying....without wondering if he would come back, if I would ever see him again.
Am I going to feel this way forever. These men were 47-Simeon and 44-Pastor Pollock.....had children, etc. My mom said to me the other day that his work on earth was done. That is one statement that I just can't wrap my mind or heart around. How is it done? God gave them both beautiful children.....doesn't He want children to grow up with a father??? I have so many questions, confusions, rushing around in my head. It feels as though a train is rushing up there and I can't stop it but, every now and then it stops to toot it's horn.....really loud!! Reminding me that it is there.
Please, God, help me. I know you are too big for me to possibly understand...but, I need some peace from this. Our family loved these two men in ways that I can't even explain. Simeon gave Katie her start in Music, loving and encouraging her all the way.....even had her sing the National Anthem July 5th at Church...trusted her that much...and then, in his usual fashion, encouraged her and built her up when she was done. We are going to miss that aspect of him more than any other...his love for our daughter.
Simeon, you will be missed greatly and never replaced in our hearts. Pastor, we still grieve losing you and feel as though we are in a strange place every Sunday morning without you in the pulpit...now with Simeon gone as well, what will it be like???
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Summer Time
Wow!! Has it been over two months since I came here? Guess so!! Not all that great at updating this...still getting accustomed to having an online place to talk to myself!!
So, my Doctor's appt went really well. She was kinda confused at the concern...didn't realize her nurse had been so scary and apologized. Nothing is out of the ordinary...hear that? I am ordinary!! NEVER been told that in.my.life!!
So, summertime has been interesting. Katie has been home for almost three months and, we are about to leave to take her back. Actually, I am taking her back all by myself. She and I will leave on the 11th of August and drive to my Mom and Dad's place in Maggie Valley, NC and spend that night. Then, on the 12th, Mom, Katie and I will do a girl's couple of days away without my dad. We are going to a Bed and Breakfast in Tryon, NC.....for two nights. It is a spa and we will all have massages. This is a surprise for my mom (celebrating her birthday that was in June) and I am counting on the fact that my Dear Daddy didn't tell her!!
After we get back to Maggie, Katie and I will spend one more night (have to meet Maggie the dog and have me some doggie play time) then, on to Buies Creek!! I think she is excited about going back. I will miss her but, it will be kinda nice to get back into a routine with the one who will be a senior.
Katie and I are going out to dinner with a bunch (don't know how many) of ladies from the area on the 15th!! These are ladies that are members of an online Message board called Scrapshare. I am ready for that one. I always meet someone new each time I am in BC and this time, I get to meet Keesher (Tracey). I have prayed for this lady, cried real tears for her, now, finally, God is allowing me to meet her and give her a big ol' hug!!
I will miss my Sweet Husband, Mitch. I hate being away from him and I often will cry myself to sleep nights when I am away or he is gone. I know that seems silly but, he is my lifeline. He is a constant for me.
So, my newest journey, and I am being successful thanks to the Grace of God and His abiding comfort and strength. I am on a weight loss journey. I want to lose this weight before any "changing" happens in my body.....know what I mean??? I know it's coming and with all the other factors against me, prednisone, so many years with diabetes, I know that now is the time. So far, after two weeks, I have lost 8 lbs.......never have I done that well in so short a time except when I was deathly sick and I wasn't even trying. So, cute little sundresses?? Maybe not this summer, but, stay tuned, I may just show up at your party in one next summer!!
I also want to credit Stacy Kocur with being my inspiration. She rocks!! She was the one who made me realize that I can do this!! She is doing it, with God's help, and with His help, so can I!!
Thanks, Stacy!!
So, my Doctor's appt went really well. She was kinda confused at the concern...didn't realize her nurse had been so scary and apologized. Nothing is out of the ordinary...hear that? I am ordinary!! NEVER been told that in.my.life!!
So, summertime has been interesting. Katie has been home for almost three months and, we are about to leave to take her back. Actually, I am taking her back all by myself. She and I will leave on the 11th of August and drive to my Mom and Dad's place in Maggie Valley, NC and spend that night. Then, on the 12th, Mom, Katie and I will do a girl's couple of days away without my dad. We are going to a Bed and Breakfast in Tryon, NC.....for two nights. It is a spa and we will all have massages. This is a surprise for my mom (celebrating her birthday that was in June) and I am counting on the fact that my Dear Daddy didn't tell her!!
After we get back to Maggie, Katie and I will spend one more night (have to meet Maggie the dog and have me some doggie play time) then, on to Buies Creek!! I think she is excited about going back. I will miss her but, it will be kinda nice to get back into a routine with the one who will be a senior.
Katie and I are going out to dinner with a bunch (don't know how many) of ladies from the area on the 15th!! These are ladies that are members of an online Message board called Scrapshare. I am ready for that one. I always meet someone new each time I am in BC and this time, I get to meet Keesher (Tracey). I have prayed for this lady, cried real tears for her, now, finally, God is allowing me to meet her and give her a big ol' hug!!
I will miss my Sweet Husband, Mitch. I hate being away from him and I often will cry myself to sleep nights when I am away or he is gone. I know that seems silly but, he is my lifeline. He is a constant for me.
So, my newest journey, and I am being successful thanks to the Grace of God and His abiding comfort and strength. I am on a weight loss journey. I want to lose this weight before any "changing" happens in my body.....know what I mean??? I know it's coming and with all the other factors against me, prednisone, so many years with diabetes, I know that now is the time. So far, after two weeks, I have lost 8 lbs.......never have I done that well in so short a time except when I was deathly sick and I wasn't even trying. So, cute little sundresses?? Maybe not this summer, but, stay tuned, I may just show up at your party in one next summer!!
I also want to credit Stacy Kocur with being my inspiration. She rocks!! She was the one who made me realize that I can do this!! She is doing it, with God's help, and with His help, so can I!!
Thanks, Stacy!!
Friday, May 9, 2008
Life's Journey
Today, I take another step on the path that God designed for me. The first 48 years of steps have not been easy but, He has always been there with me and brought me through each trial with His loving care.
Today, the journey continues. I have my OB/GYN appt to get the results of my tests that were run these past few weeks. I know that there is thickening of my endometrial wall and a cyst on my left ovary. Other than that, I know nothing.....and truthfully, I am scared.
It's funny how when you go through something as traumatic as kidneys failing and a kidney/pancreas transplant, along with 3 and 1/2 minutes not breathing and being brought back, you kind of have this thought that God won't allow anymore "stuff" to happen. I was that way when I was pregnant for the third time and had no children and that is what got me through those tough times.
So, for today, I am believing that God has a real purpose for me and for bringing me back to life that day five years ago. And, I am believing that He still has great things in store for me as a mom and a wife and a woman of Faith. So, I will not dwell on what could be but, rather, on what I have today, right now, this very moment. I have acquired, in my journey through life, an incredible wonderful husband who loves me more than I could ever imagine, two of the most beautiful children you would ever want to meet (and by beautiful I am talking inside and out) a great home, an awesome doggie who loves me and I am a member of a unbelieveable Church family who supports and encourages me always. (He has also blessed me with some pretty incredible sisters (those lovely ladies married to my sweet brothers). So, that is what I have and I am grateful for all of that. For what I don't know, meh!!
Today, the journey continues. I have my OB/GYN appt to get the results of my tests that were run these past few weeks. I know that there is thickening of my endometrial wall and a cyst on my left ovary. Other than that, I know nothing.....and truthfully, I am scared.
It's funny how when you go through something as traumatic as kidneys failing and a kidney/pancreas transplant, along with 3 and 1/2 minutes not breathing and being brought back, you kind of have this thought that God won't allow anymore "stuff" to happen. I was that way when I was pregnant for the third time and had no children and that is what got me through those tough times.
So, for today, I am believing that God has a real purpose for me and for bringing me back to life that day five years ago. And, I am believing that He still has great things in store for me as a mom and a wife and a woman of Faith. So, I will not dwell on what could be but, rather, on what I have today, right now, this very moment. I have acquired, in my journey through life, an incredible wonderful husband who loves me more than I could ever imagine, two of the most beautiful children you would ever want to meet (and by beautiful I am talking inside and out) a great home, an awesome doggie who loves me and I am a member of a unbelieveable Church family who supports and encourages me always. (He has also blessed me with some pretty incredible sisters (those lovely ladies married to my sweet brothers). So, that is what I have and I am grateful for all of that. For what I don't know, meh!!
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
HUSBAND TAG
Amanda got me so...here it goes:::
What is his name? Mitch most of the time but, when I'm mad....oh...never mind!!
How long have you been married? In another week and 10 days it will be 22 years.
How long did you date? Well, we had known each other since babyhood....he claims to have helped my mom change my diapers!! So, we went on a "friend" outing that turned into something more serious on September 21, got engaged on December 25, got married on May 17, so, that would be, almost 8 mos. But, we really did know each other well!!
How old is he? He is 51
Who eats more? He does, but, lately it's a toss up!!
Who said I love you first? I think I did but, only because I was coming off a serious relationship and he didn't want to scare me away so, he waited until I knew it before it was said.
Who is taller? I am NOT tall!! He is NOT tall, but, he is taller than me....5'8" to my 5'2"!!
Who sings better? Our daughter!!
Who's temper is worse? Well, his is quicker, mine is slower....takes alot to make me angry but, when I reach that point, I'm pretty mean!!
Who does the laundry? Well, ever since I was in the hospital for weeks awaiting one of the kids birth and he did it, so proud of himself, and I came home to grey everything because he washed my dry clean black pants, I do it, gladly!!
Who does the dishes? That would be mostly me.....I don't work so, I fix dinner and clean up. Sometimes, he surprises me and does it but, if I mess anything up, he goes nuts.
Who sleeps on the right side of the bed (when you are facing it)? Me....is that strange? I sleep closest to the bathroom wherever we are and that happens to be the right side at home.
Who pays the bills? I do. I write the checks and put the envelope next to his stuff for work the next day and he takes it to work so that it doesn't sit in the mailbox.
Who cooks dinner? Again, my job....he's at work, I'm at home, I cook!!
Who mows the lawn? The Lawn guy unless we buy a riding mower than, we will both do it...I will ride around like I know what I am doing while he trims the edges and gets the hard to reach spots with the push mower. I'm actually psyched about this one.
Who drives when you are together? Mostly him. I will sometimes go with him on a road trip and I will drive because he does his puzzle from the newspaper when he is driving and it freaks me out.....but, it also gives him a break because he drives all of the time.
Who has more friends? That's a tough one. He has more that are around here being that he's at work. I have bunches of internet friends that I actually get to see now and then. Who has more? I dunno.
Who has more siblings? I do. I have three brothers to his two sisters. Guess we kinda understand each other better having grown up with the opposite sex with no same sex sibling for help/protection.
Who wears the pants in the family? This is a shared responsibility...mostly. Now, if we are talking about bugs???? He most certainly gets the title!!
What is his name? Mitch most of the time but, when I'm mad....oh...never mind!!
How long have you been married? In another week and 10 days it will be 22 years.
How long did you date? Well, we had known each other since babyhood....he claims to have helped my mom change my diapers!! So, we went on a "friend" outing that turned into something more serious on September 21, got engaged on December 25, got married on May 17, so, that would be, almost 8 mos. But, we really did know each other well!!
How old is he? He is 51
Who eats more? He does, but, lately it's a toss up!!
Who said I love you first? I think I did but, only because I was coming off a serious relationship and he didn't want to scare me away so, he waited until I knew it before it was said.
Who is taller? I am NOT tall!! He is NOT tall, but, he is taller than me....5'8" to my 5'2"!!
Who sings better? Our daughter!!
Who's temper is worse? Well, his is quicker, mine is slower....takes alot to make me angry but, when I reach that point, I'm pretty mean!!
Who does the laundry? Well, ever since I was in the hospital for weeks awaiting one of the kids birth and he did it, so proud of himself, and I came home to grey everything because he washed my dry clean black pants, I do it, gladly!!
Who does the dishes? That would be mostly me.....I don't work so, I fix dinner and clean up. Sometimes, he surprises me and does it but, if I mess anything up, he goes nuts.
Who sleeps on the right side of the bed (when you are facing it)? Me....is that strange? I sleep closest to the bathroom wherever we are and that happens to be the right side at home.
Who pays the bills? I do. I write the checks and put the envelope next to his stuff for work the next day and he takes it to work so that it doesn't sit in the mailbox.
Who cooks dinner? Again, my job....he's at work, I'm at home, I cook!!
Who mows the lawn? The Lawn guy unless we buy a riding mower than, we will both do it...I will ride around like I know what I am doing while he trims the edges and gets the hard to reach spots with the push mower. I'm actually psyched about this one.
Who drives when you are together? Mostly him. I will sometimes go with him on a road trip and I will drive because he does his puzzle from the newspaper when he is driving and it freaks me out.....but, it also gives him a break because he drives all of the time.
Who has more friends? That's a tough one. He has more that are around here being that he's at work. I have bunches of internet friends that I actually get to see now and then. Who has more? I dunno.
Who has more siblings? I do. I have three brothers to his two sisters. Guess we kinda understand each other better having grown up with the opposite sex with no same sex sibling for help/protection.
Who wears the pants in the family? This is a shared responsibility...mostly. Now, if we are talking about bugs???? He most certainly gets the title!!
Crazy Days
Okay, Amanda, here it is!! I am posting for the first time. My life is a jumble of craziness right now. With Katie now home for the summer and looking for a job, nothing is as it was....calm days are now over for the time being.
Bekah still goes to school, Katie sleeps in until she chooses to face the world, I get nothing done and get irritated with her because the little that I do, she undoes. She is, by far, the sloppiest person I know....well, she and her sister, which makes for a great combination!!
I was approached last night about a job possibility.....with a company that makes insulin pumps.....I wore one for 15 years before my transplant. A friend of ours (Steve) has gone to work for them as a salesman and he needs a trainer for the patients he sells to. Right up my alley. I don't know any details but, it actually made my heart skip a beat. I'm not actively seeking employment but, this sounds like something I would not consider work.. I remember the fears of that little device that can take control of diabetes oh, so quickly.
I guess I need to inquire about it in more detail. I would love it if I only worked with Steve, therefore, not requiring me to work except on a as needed basis. Suits my lifestyle just fine.
Off to help Katie fill out some online apps.....praying that someone calls soon!!! She needs to work!!!!!!!!!!
Bekah still goes to school, Katie sleeps in until she chooses to face the world, I get nothing done and get irritated with her because the little that I do, she undoes. She is, by far, the sloppiest person I know....well, she and her sister, which makes for a great combination!!
I was approached last night about a job possibility.....with a company that makes insulin pumps.....I wore one for 15 years before my transplant. A friend of ours (Steve) has gone to work for them as a salesman and he needs a trainer for the patients he sells to. Right up my alley. I don't know any details but, it actually made my heart skip a beat. I'm not actively seeking employment but, this sounds like something I would not consider work.. I remember the fears of that little device that can take control of diabetes oh, so quickly.
I guess I need to inquire about it in more detail. I would love it if I only worked with Steve, therefore, not requiring me to work except on a as needed basis. Suits my lifestyle just fine.
Off to help Katie fill out some online apps.....praying that someone calls soon!!! She needs to work!!!!!!!!!!
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