Reflections of a mother

I am sitting here, drinking my coffee, wondering where time goes to.

It was just a few days ago that I was bringing home my 2.5 lb baby, all wrapped up in a doll dress, with diapers that swallowed her whole....and now, she is off, out of my house, out of my control, in a big ol' school, in an apartment that she has helped decorate, getting ready to embark on her own adventure.

Gone are the days of calling me from high school, asking me to bring her something or, just to say "hi". Gone are the days I can just jump in the car and go sign her out for lunch down the street at Ruth's. No more quickie trips to the mall at night just to "check things out".
Gone are the days of standing in the grocery store for hours at a time, calling different companies to find out if their "natural flavorings" involve any type of wheat, barley, rye or oats.
Gone the hours of wondering, worrying, crying because she is sooo sick from something she ate and not being able to help her or to figure out what it was she was contaminated with.

As much as some of those days were a pain, I am going to sooo miss them. What will I do with myself?

I am sure I will find things to occupy myself. Like catching up with my album projects...better finish her high school album first. Going to lunch with Mitch. Going on his out of town trips with him.....and, not having to wake up at 5:30 to make sure she is up. I will take up a new hobby....learn something new. I will make time for God, for my friends, for things I love.

But, in the meantime, I will take time to reflect on all that has been and look to the future for all that will be.....pray for that little girl...that she becomes all that she can be...that the future is all that she wants it to be.....in the meantime....

"MY WISH FOR YOU"............you know the words!! I just don't want to cry again!!